Talk abt nt washing e dirty linens in e public..

A few days ago, i quarrelled wif my mum.. it's always her.. To me, it cannot b helped.. she's a virgo.. Yeah, as a mum, she wants 2 correct my wrong things so tt i can b a better person.. but e way she corrects me is like a confrontation or an accusation, so tt's y i turn very defensive n we argue like lawyers.. stating definitions etc sometimes..

Why issit tt she quarrel more often wif me den wif my sis? E last time she argues wif me, after a while, she said she does nt want 2 talk 2 me but rather with other ppl.. Y? This made me think: Am i her real daughter? She can tell me nw if i'm nt.. She also says tt as parents, they won't show favourtism 2 any of their children.. yeah i thought so too.. I thought only e mum wouldn't show favouritsm bcos she suffered months for her children.. But from what i c, she treats my sis better - scolding her less, talking 2 her more nicely etc.. Y? yeah my sis is better than me in some ways.. Mayb it's bcos i'm always pulling a long face in front of my parents bt nt my sis? I dun noe..

As a child, i feel that we can't do certain things which adults can do i they can get away wif it.. Someday, i hav 2 do it back so as 2 let them experience e anger tt i kept in me..

Where's is tt stupid idiotic guy whom i'm supposed 2 share my woes n happiness in times like this? :'(

Enough abt tt.. &$*%$*^%$&%(&*^*$*
Lately, i've been asking qns abt christainity.. i'm interested in this since young but y i didn't become a christian was bcos i dun really noe whether what i'm feeling nw is juz plain curiosity or do i really believe.. Yeah i believe cos some of e things i've asked 4 i c it happening in my life.. But is tt coincidence? They say a person is bt called 2 do somthing which e person hates.. I've went to 2 services in one of e churches n i dun really feel e connection.. Mayb if try other churches it'll help?

Exams r ard e corner.. i'll try my best 2 score e best.. n in about 3 wks time, i'll b going out 2 work..
I hope tt i'll get a place in e overseas Uni 2 study e Pharmacy degree program..

I'm so looking 4ward 2 e class chalet rite after e exams..


Here r some of my fav songs cos i'm touched by e lyrics (i happen 2 b listening 2 them nw)
Li sheng Jie - Chi Xin Jue Dui
想用一杯Latte把你灌醉 好让你能多爱我一点 暗恋的滋味 你不懂这种感觉 早有人陪的你永远不会 看见你和他在我面前 证明我的爱只是愚昧 你不懂我的 那些憔悴 是你永远不曾过的体会 为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解 我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切 你又狠狠逼退 我的防备 静静关上门来默数我的泪 明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会 我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天 直到那一天 你会发现 真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲 曾经我以为我自己会后悔 不想爱的太多痴心绝对 为你落第一滴泪 为你做任何改变 也唤不回你对我的坚决

Zhang Shan Wei - yi sheng huan yi tian


K, i've let off steam.. Hmmph




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