Hmmm, what should be my title? But i've more than 1 pt 2 make? Nvm, i'll fill it in later.. :O

2day i had a strange dream.. n a real one 2! I dreamt tt my alarm clock has suddenly stopped working in e middle of e night n true enough, when i woke up in e morning, i asked myself y didn't e alarm clock rang when e sky if already bright? I looked @ e clock n checked wif e outside one, my alarm clock is wrong! - as what appeared in my dream.. It's pretty scary tt these things would happen..

@ work.. e same thing, i dun really talk 2 ppl cos my kind of work needs concentration.. if i were 2 talk 2 ppl, den i would pick e wrong drugs etc.. But however, durin lunch time, i ate alone.. Most probably it's cos i brought my own food while others go out 2 buy lunch.. Hai.. Can i b more proactive n try 2 make conversations wif ppl no matter how lame i think e subject is? I think i've said more 'excuse me's then talkin 2 ppl.. Lol! N when ppl r absorbed in their own work, they would hav a serious face.. N, i would feel terrified 2 ask.. Haha.. But i did anyway.. Sometimes i really feel like i was invisible.. 4 example, e place i was workin in is called 'centre'.. n i was workin wif some1 else.. den e person suddenly said: "How come all e ppl in e centre all gone ar?" I thought 2 myself: does she regard me as some1? Can she nt c me? Aren't i also workin in e centre? Is being 2 wks @ work still considered new? Cos till nw, i'm still making mistakes every single day.. n i dun really feel tt i'm into e environment enough 2 talk n joke wif my colleagues..

I read some1 elses blog 2day n this person is some1 whom i hold in high regard.. but in his blog, like many ppl, he also talks abt relationship etc.. Y would he worry 4 this kind of things? He has a gd personality n is a very fun person.. No need 2 worry.. Some ppl i feel worry 2 much.. it's nt like they r very ugly or hav no outstandin personalities, many hav looks n personalities but they still worry abt such things.. No need 2 cos i feel it'll come naturally 4 them.. But in my case, it's nt called bein not confident or pessimistic - it's knowing my place n where i stand.. Readin his blog, i suddenly remembered what one of friends said: nw tt we graduated, there r lesser n lesser chances of meetin ppl ard my age.. so therefore, lesser e chance of meetin a gd person.. N @ work, e ppl r usually much older.. so, u noe.. Is there some1 on earth who can appreciate me 4 who i am? Hmmm, so far none..



je me sens solitaire,
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